Khamu'wo is often described as cool, calm, and collected. He works hard to keep himself presentable, professional, and pristine at all times. This often makes him come across as a bit cold and steely—as well as prickish—and that's honestly how he likes it. It's easier if people think of him as this unwavering force of calm decisiveness, that's unaffected by much outside of logical reasoning. In other words, the more like a robot he might seem, the better.
That being said, Khamu'wo is anything but a robot. While he may aim for people to perceive him as such, he has quite the emotional bounty. His control over showing such emotions does little to refute their existence; as people say: absence of evidence is not evidence of absence. In fact, Khamu'wo is easily moved by people's ill fortunes, and will help many who are in need—even if often under the guise of berating them for their poor decisions, and being inconvenienced in so doing such tasks. He would never deny a person in honest need of help, and as such he can find his heart stings being pulled like the strings of a marionette, if a person knows just how to pluck the wires.
Some of his emotional problems stem from his OCD. Actual OCD, mind. Not only does he have particulars about things being a certain way, or maximizing efficiency and tidiness, but he has rituals he has to do to keep himself in check (like counting numbers in his head, for instance). Part of his practiced emotional control stems from his need to control his impulsive and erratic mind. Math has proven a means of meditation and calm for him, and so his delving into Arcanima did not merely serve him in the logical sense he so desired in his pursuit of magic; but it seconded as a means to self medicate. Numbers, figures, geometries—the defined and exact matters of each part offers him comfort and direction. It soothes him, where nothing else can. It's through these variables and practices, that he may keep himself together, and keep what panicked or angry emotions bubbling beneath the surface quarantined and in control.
A stickler for rules and order, he projects onto others his need for structure. The more he can control and keep in place, the less likely he himself might panic or lose control. This constant need for control drives him to better himself and others around. In part, it does come from a genuine place of care and affection—he wants what's best for those around him, even those he doesn't particularly know. However, he's believes that he cannot help if he himself is not in control, and so he tends to over do it and come across as either a naggy mother hen, or an immovable dictator.
Other ways his OCD effects him is in the form of his prudishness. One unfortunate symptom of a mind inflicted with OCD is vivid intrusive thoughts, and Khamu'wo is not spared these. As such, he's particularly susceptible to imagery of sexual persuasion. So, things as simple as too much skin being shown is enough to send him into a fit. As such, he often will make scathing remarks to those around him showing off more skin that what he deems necessary, or he hurries them along to get properly dressed; that is if he has the authority to do as such. His family proved to be very open and into free love, his siblings in particular. A behavior that left him feeling dirty, and disgusted over, as it flared his intrusive thoughts, and so he grew to revile such ways of life.
However, his thoughts happen more towards men than women. As such, he is far more scathing towards men who show too much, than women who might. Mainly because Khamu'wo is gay, and is in vehement denial of such. The intrusive thoughts with males bother him to his core, where as at least with those with women he can shrug off as being something "natural" and "normal". He truly believes sex should be used as a means to prolong the species, and anything beyond that is for those of simple and deteriorated minds who seek simple pleasures.
Needless to say, Khamu'wo has his issues. Most of his prejudices and intolerance come from within. Criticisms he has with himself that he has not even begun to recognize or confront. Finding it much easier to project on others, and blame them for these horrible feelings. He has a long way to go before he can properly heal from the self inflicted feelings of hatred and anger, let alone accept himself for who he is. Instead he chooses to bury himself in his studies and work, ignoring those niggling feelings within himself. Instead, he pretends that he's above such things, that carnal needs and desires are below someone of his intellect and ability. That such things are for the more primitively inclined.
Despite his front of being some intellectually swayed elite, he's still rather giving and caring. Acting like some gift to those he assists, he does genuinely assist those in need. Even if he does little to hold back his remarks about them and what he might not like. Of course, he does this in a perceived "professional" and stoic manner. That is, so long as he feels he's in control. Once he feels he's lost control, he is prone to panic, become flustered, and his anger will seep through. Before this point is reached, however, he will often times retreat to recollect himself. One of his favorite ways to recoup is re-balancing the Free Company's check book, or run statistics on Free Company information. Order, math, and structure are his vices, and he's absolutely shameless about it. An alcoholic has ale, while Khamu'wo has math.
With his need for control, however, he tends to take on way more than he should. Often driving himself to sleep deprivation as he tries to balance more than he physically is able. This does little to stop him, however. Preferring to run himself ragged, than let his mind be left to wander into the intrusive and disturbing areas it will when left unoccupied. He would rather live a life full of being productive and unhappy, than a life of inefficiency and laziness.
For all Khamu'wo wishes to be seen as some machine of ultimate knowledge and efficiency, in truth he struggles with his own feelings, and is only able to do as much as he has because of his barely managed disgust and anger with himself. At the best of times, he's a caring and understanding friend, at the worst he's a catty know-it-all who looks down on choices of others outside his own. In the end, he is trying, and he does want to help people genuinely, but he holds back his own potential by not accepting aspects about himself, and his obsessive need for control that stems from those unwanted aspects. As well as the OCD that seemingly mocks him with those aspects he tries so hard to deny and hide.
Abilities: Scholar abilities, this basically covers what he can do. Between Summoning faeries, carbuncles, and spells that bolsters and heal his allies, he can also use those that do harm. Incantations that can cause painful and lethal illness, as well as explosive aetherical blasts, Khamu'wo is a pretty talented arcanima user. While he isn't the strongest by any means, he's a formidable foe to say the least.
However, he isn't the strongest physically. He's not frail, but he's barely average.
Alignment: Sosyne.
The reason for this is because while Khamu'wo often displays outward calmness—especially in times of great stress and annoyance—but he's actually bubbling beneath the surface with a lot of anger. Anger fuels a great deal of what he does, how he thinks, and reacts. However, he's primarily has a good enough control on his emotions to act more calm and put together than what his internal feelings actually are. So most would think he's calm and very emotionally mature, but the truth is he's a volcano bubbling with metaphorical magma, and his eruption is well overdue.
Questions: Khamu'wo summons creatures from Eorzea's aetherial plane, how exactly would that translate once he arrives in this world? I am assuming he'd use emotions to fuel such spells, but I just wanna make sure!
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Khamu'wo is often described as cool, calm, and collected. He works hard to keep himself presentable, professional, and pristine at all times. This often makes him come across as a bit cold and steely—as well as prickish—and that's honestly how he likes it. It's easier if people think of him as this unwavering force of calm decisiveness, that's unaffected by much outside of logical reasoning. In other words, the more like a robot he might seem, the better.
That being said, Khamu'wo is anything but a robot. While he may aim for people to perceive him as such, he has quite the emotional bounty. His control over showing such emotions does little to refute their existence; as people say: absence of evidence is not evidence of absence. In fact, Khamu'wo is easily moved by people's ill fortunes, and will help many who are in need—even if often under the guise of berating them for their poor decisions, and being inconvenienced in so doing such tasks. He would never deny a person in honest need of help, and as such he can find his heart stings being pulled like the strings of a marionette, if a person knows just how to pluck the wires.
Some of his emotional problems stem from his OCD. Actual OCD, mind. Not only does he have particulars about things being a certain way, or maximizing efficiency and tidiness, but he has rituals he has to do to keep himself in check (like counting numbers in his head, for instance). Part of his practiced emotional control stems from his need to control his impulsive and erratic mind. Math has proven a means of meditation and calm for him, and so his delving into Arcanima did not merely serve him in the logical sense he so desired in his pursuit of magic; but it seconded as a means to self medicate. Numbers, figures, geometries—the defined and exact matters of each part offers him comfort and direction. It soothes him, where nothing else can. It's through these variables and practices, that he may keep himself together, and keep what panicked or angry emotions bubbling beneath the surface quarantined and in control.
A stickler for rules and order, he projects onto others his need for structure. The more he can control and keep in place, the less likely he himself might panic or lose control. This constant need for control drives him to better himself and others around. In part, it does come from a genuine place of care and affection—he wants what's best for those around him, even those he doesn't particularly know. However, he's believes that he cannot help if he himself is not in control, and so he tends to over do it and come across as either a naggy mother hen, or an immovable dictator.
Other ways his OCD effects him is in the form of his prudishness. One unfortunate symptom of a mind inflicted with OCD is vivid intrusive thoughts, and Khamu'wo is not spared these. As such, he's particularly susceptible to imagery of sexual persuasion. So, things as simple as too much skin being shown is enough to send him into a fit. As such, he often will make scathing remarks to those around him showing off more skin that what he deems necessary, or he hurries them along to get properly dressed; that is if he has the authority to do as such. His family proved to be very open and into free love, his siblings in particular. A behavior that left him feeling dirty, and disgusted over, as it flared his intrusive thoughts, and so he grew to revile such ways of life.
However, his thoughts happen more towards men than women. As such, he is far more scathing towards men who show too much, than women who might. Mainly because Khamu'wo is gay, and is in vehement denial of such. The intrusive thoughts with males bother him to his core, where as at least with those with women he can shrug off as being something "natural" and "normal". He truly believes sex should be used as a means to prolong the species, and anything beyond that is for those of simple and deteriorated minds who seek simple pleasures.
Needless to say, Khamu'wo has his issues. Most of his prejudices and intolerance come from within. Criticisms he has with himself that he has not even begun to recognize or confront. Finding it much easier to project on others, and blame them for these horrible feelings. He has a long way to go before he can properly heal from the self inflicted feelings of hatred and anger, let alone accept himself for who he is. Instead he chooses to bury himself in his studies and work, ignoring those niggling feelings within himself. Instead, he pretends that he's above such things, that carnal needs and desires are below someone of his intellect and ability. That such things are for the more primitively inclined.
Despite his front of being some intellectually swayed elite, he's still rather giving and caring. Acting like some gift to those he assists, he does genuinely assist those in need. Even if he does little to hold back his remarks about them and what he might not like. Of course, he does this in a perceived "professional" and stoic manner. That is, so long as he feels he's in control. Once he feels he's lost control, he is prone to panic, become flustered, and his anger will seep through. Before this point is reached, however, he will often times retreat to recollect himself. One of his favorite ways to recoup is re-balancing the Free Company's check book, or run statistics on Free Company information. Order, math, and structure are his vices, and he's absolutely shameless about it. An alcoholic has ale, while Khamu'wo has math.
With his need for control, however, he tends to take on way more than he should. Often driving himself to sleep deprivation as he tries to balance more than he physically is able. This does little to stop him, however. Preferring to run himself ragged, than let his mind be left to wander into the intrusive and disturbing areas it will when left unoccupied. He would rather live a life full of being productive and unhappy, than a life of inefficiency and laziness.
For all Khamu'wo wishes to be seen as some machine of ultimate knowledge and efficiency, in truth he struggles with his own feelings, and is only able to do as much as he has because of his barely managed disgust and anger with himself. At the best of times, he's a caring and understanding friend, at the worst he's a catty know-it-all who looks down on choices of others outside his own. In the end, he is trying, and he does want to help people genuinely, but he holds back his own potential by not accepting aspects about himself, and his obsessive need for control that stems from those unwanted aspects. As well as the OCD that seemingly mocks him with those aspects he tries so hard to deny and hide.
Abilities:
Scholar abilities, this basically covers what he can do. Between Summoning faeries, carbuncles, and spells that bolsters and heal his allies, he can also use those that do harm. Incantations that can cause painful and lethal illness, as well as explosive aetherical blasts, Khamu'wo is a pretty talented arcanima user. While he isn't the strongest by any means, he's a formidable foe to say the least.
However, he isn't the strongest physically. He's not frail, but he's barely average.
Alignment:
Sosyne.
The reason for this is because while Khamu'wo often displays outward calmness—especially in times of great stress and annoyance—but he's actually bubbling beneath the surface with a lot of anger. Anger fuels a great deal of what he does, how he thinks, and reacts. However, he's primarily has a good enough control on his emotions to act more calm and put together than what his internal feelings actually are. So most would think he's calm and very emotionally mature, but the truth is he's a volcano bubbling with metaphorical magma, and his eruption is well overdue.
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General Sample: meme threads
Emotion Sample: Both threads have emotion parts to it
Questions: Khamu'wo summons creatures from Eorzea's aetherial plane, how exactly would that translate once he arrives in this world? I am assuming he'd use emotions to fuel such spells, but I just wanna make sure!